Hi, Mecyll here. How are you doing this week?
Me? I’ve been going through a lot of hell. All because of the haunting past that continues to taunt us to this day.
To provide some context, my husband and I moved out of our old apartment in 2023. It’s been 2 years since we closed that dark chapter, yet we still find ourselves in a loophole.
If you'd like to learn more about this, you can watch my “Leaving Brennet Series,” which directly addresses the topic. You should watch it, so you can understand the whole context.
Right now, I just want to focus on how this has affected me and my marriage, my life overall. The episodes feature my husband, my honest thoughts and feelings about the situation—everything you need to know.
Going back…
Yeah, since then, we drove to the police and the court back and forth to hopefully find a resolution, to close the chapter finally. Because that’s exactly what we find for ourselves. Closure. If everything went well, it would be a peaceful one.
How about you? Have you been in situations where you find yourself in a bad seat?
If so, how do you handle it? Do you drown yourself with ill-thoughts or emotions immediately and find it hard to recover and move on the next day?
Or, you’re the type who transmute and alchemize bad things into something beautiful, even if it means confronting the bad, dark, gunky stuff you don’t like?
Your choice.
My choice? The latter.
Why? Simple.
I want to live happier and longer.
I don’t want to end up like my loved ones who waited for the Grim Reaper to reconcile with life and be real with themselves. I don’t want to end up like others who succumbed to life-threatening diseases because their body gave up.
I don’t want to be that kind of mother who passes on unconscious curses to their children simply because they aren’t aware of generational trauma. I don’t want to be that auntie who deprives nephews and nieces of the colorful world they deserve.
No. I would rather alchemize bad situations into something magical, like turning them into chapters, just as I did for the Cult of Eros series (back in 2022, a year before our ex-landlord decided to throw us out of our home).
Honestly, without the pain and grit in my life, I wouldn’t know if I could write the story and develop the characters in the same fashion.
Without these seemingly inescapable circumstances, I can say to you that it would be close to impossible to write Valon, Clay, Agatha, Liz, and Alain in that exact way as they are with justice.
“I prefer living my life without having anything or anyone holding me back. ‘Cause I know what I want in life, and I deserve the best life I know I’m born for.”
Valon De Lara, “Strokes of Desire, Cult of Eros #1”
Like Valon, I wouldn’t find my healing without embracing the shadows and the pain. Because in the darkness, I found my purpose.
My light shone when my husband could barely think of the next step, when everyone seemed to unhear our cries and bully us for the sake of gaining and winning.
When everyone expected me to fall and stumble, I rose and spread my wings like a phoenix, rising from the ashes. I had to be strong enough for my husband (here in Germany) and for my family (in the Philippines). So far away from me.
And writing my life, turning them into readable books, made this possible. Fiction saved my life. Despite the harsh life, I smile and laugh, and I know no one can take away what my inner child gave me.
So do you.
You shouldn’t let ‘Others’ take the ‘Self’ you own.
Your childhood dreams are yours to lead you to your best life, not the other way around. You wouldn’t have those visions if they were never meant to be yours.
Stop running away from the calling, from the future you truly deserve.
Again, your decision to take a big leap of faith and do it.
This is why I love to spend time with myself, giving myself permission to recharge by doing something I’ve always wanted to do for quite some time.
Reading. Reading. Reading.
I enjoy reading my work, as well as manuscripts from others.
I. Love. Books. Super-duper lurv it! :)
But somehow, as I’ve grown into an adult, I lost it. Have you?
I know it’s weird because I’m an author. “How couldn’t you read a lot?” you ask.
Dang, I hope I can give you clear answers right now. But nada except time constraints.
That’s why I’m on the hunt for good books, and hopefully I can add some of them to my bookshelf as well.
If you’re looking for new books to add to your shelf, let me introduce you to Lauren Louise Hazel and Abyy Sparklewood, authors of “The Queen of the Underworld” and “Positive Affirmations for Women of Color,” respectively.


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I hope this newsletter reaches you. And if you’ve read it, please don’t hesitate to leave your thoughts and feelings about it in your reply. I truly appreciate every nugget, every thought, every feeling you get from my messages.
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Questions? Concerns? Anything I missed? None.
I wish you a great weekend, despite the rain outside. Fewer outdoor walks. But stay positive and keep your light shining, my friend.
Stay strong.
With love, peace, and harmony with ‘Self’ and ‘Others’
Mecyll
P.S.: Before I forget. Speaking of staying strong, here’s my latest YouTube video, which you might like to watch. It’s about you—and how strong you actually are. Just don’t forget to take care of yourself. Okay? Got me?